Yeah yeah yeah!

Today I received an email with a list of all of the other teaching assistants going to France with me this year!

Two of them have already written!

I am excited!

FRANCE!

Stupid.

Today is stupid.

It is a stupid, stupid day.

I just want to get into my bed, eat chocolate, and watch Grey's.

Stupid.

"It's Friday,

I'm in love."

My Foxy Lady

Recently I've had this new found obsession with foxes.

Why?

Because they are cool.

I think it may have started when I watched the movie Fantastic Mr. Fox {"I'm asking if he thinks we're in for a hard winter.... He doesn't seem to know"} a few weeks ago. I really just want one as a pet. Wouldn't that be so cool!? "Yeah, this is my pet Fox, Foxy. Jealous?"

In case you were wondering, I've found out some interesting facts about foxes...

A pack of foxes is called a skulk.

A fox's bushy tail is called a brush.

Its acute muzzle is called a fox face.

Foxes stalk their prey just like cats. Also like cats, they often play with their catch before they kill it. If they aren’t hungry, they may even catch mice just to play with, then let them go when they are done.

A fox’s hearing is so sharp they can hear a watch ticking forty yards away.

Although it is a member of the dog family, some of the fox's habits are very cat like as well.

{I don't even know if this is a fox... but look how cute it is!}

"Vulpes Vulpes!"



Foxes rock.

J'aime Paris!

So.

I only decided about a week and a half ago that I am positively going to France.

That being said, I have:

-had five freak outs
-had one major freak out to the point of crying at work I was so stressed out
-almost withdrawn from the program
-given twelve million self pep talks
-made eighty billion pro/con lists
-eaten too much chocolate {and that says a lot coming from me}

But, I also...

-spoke French with a new friend
-was asked by someone at work about the pronunciation of French words to translate them for TV
-have been able to use my French to help tutor my Spanish speaking student learning to read English
-spoke French with a stranger
-met three Haitians {LOVE that word!} and spoke French with them - they said I had a good accent!
-had many moments of peace about my decision {although they are quickly followed by a fresh wave of panic}
-am getting REALLY excited!

Plus I had a great conversation with Shea Whitney today and she calmed me down. Luckily she is a little bit saner than I am.

So for now, I am still planning on living in Paris, France for a year.

How lucky is that!



Peace and Blessings

Things I must get done in the next four months...

* Complete my course contracts
* Write and send my scholarship acceptance letter
* Go to the San Fransisco French Embassy to get my Visa (and visit the Full House house)
* Find housing in France...yeah.
* Sell my car
* Get together all the things I will need while in France
* Put holds on all of my accounts
* Buy a plane ticket
* Refrain from having anymore freak outs.

This list will only continue to grow.

Awesome.

From Lemony Snicket "Horseradish: Bitter Truths You Can’t Avoid"

"It is a curious thing, the death of a loved one. We all know that our time in this world is limited, and that eventually all of us will end up underneath some sheet, never to wake up. And yet it is always a surprise when it happens to someone we know. It is like walking up the stairs to your bedroom in the dark, and thinking there is one more stair than there is. Your foot falls down, through the air, and there is a sickly moment of dark surprise as you try and readjust the way you thought of things."

Okay. That is so not how Mer and Christina act. "Let's hug it out...I'm really proud of you Meredith Grey."

Whatever.

But this episode looks promising. Hopefully it will be exciting to save the season from being a complete mess of mediocrity.

We will find out in t-minus eighteen hours...


Peace and Blessings

Yes, I did leave the house like this.

So I know I'm having one of those days when I have had this exact conversation {or similar ones... multiple times a day}.

Me: Hi, how are you doing today?

Person With No Tact: I'm good how are you?

M: I'm very well thank you

PWNT: You are?

M: ...yes?

PWNT: Oh.

M: Well, I mean, I'm a little tired...

PWNT: Yeah you look...{studying the unkempt frizzy mess atop my head that I call hair, barely there makeup, slouched position because my chair back is broken, overall bored expression, lack of lip gloss and unfortunate outfit that doesn't quite go because I was trying to be bold}... tired.

M: ...I'm going to get some chocolate.

Letter from John Keats to Fanny Brawne

My dearest Girl,

This moment I have set myself to copy some verses out fair. I cannot proceed with any degree of content. I must write you a line or two and see if that will assist in dismissing you from my Mind for ever so short a time. Upon my Soul I can think of nothing else - The time is passed when I had power to advise and warn you again[s]t the unpromising morning of my Life - My love has made me selfish. I cannot exist without you - I am forgetful of every thing but seeing you again - my Life seems to stop there - I see no further. You have absorb'd me. I have a sensation at the present moment as though I was dissolving - I should be exquisitely miserable without the hope of soon seeing you. I should be afraid to separate myself far from you. My sweet Fanny, will your heart never change? My love, will it? I have no limit now to my love - Your note came in just here - I cannot be happier away from you - 'T is richer than an Argosy of Pearles. Do not threat me even in jest. I have been astonished that Men could die Martyrs for religion - I have shudder'd at it - I shudder no more - I could be martyr'd for my Religion - Love is my religion - I could die for that - I could die for you. My Creed is Love and you are its only tenet - You have ravish'd me away by a Power I cannot resist: and yet I could resist till I saw you; and even since I have seen you I have endeavoured often "to reason against the reasons of my Love." I can do that no more - the pain would be too great - My Love is selfish - I cannot breathe without you.

Yours for ever
John Keats

How wonderful.

{From "Bright Star"}

Today I had a perfect moment...

I was sitting at a stop light with my windows down, eating a piece of Dove dark chocolate, listening to Bach and thinking about France.

As if this wasn't awesome enough I saw a missionary on the side of the road physically high five a man driving by in a work truck.

He will do great things.

Love it!

My New Theme Song...

In the past month I...

got a raise at work.

received a full tuition scholarship for the 2010-2011 school year.

was accepted for an internship in France.

Awesome.

Crux.

Haitian.

Garrish.

I love these words.

Carry this picture for luck

So, here are some photographs that I have taken...

{Okay I know her leg is cut off but look at her body and her HAIR!}

Thoughts?

Peace and Blessings

Seriously? Seriously!

This is pretty much how I feel about life right now...

Sometimes I...

Dig through the Frosted Mini Wheat bag until I find the ones with the most frosting

Want to only eat chocolate. For every meal.

Skip classes even though I only have five days left

Put on too much mascara because I just can't stop!

Only listen to Dashboard Confessional

Want to stay in bed all day watching Grey's Anatomy

Say literally when I mean figuratively

Want to leave everything and move to Europe

Wish that my life had constant background music, like a life soundtrack.

Pretend I'm asleep when really I just don't want to talk to you

Want to ride my bike Clinton

Want to have a huge public freak out

Never want to speak French again

Fake laugh. Sometimes people just aren't funny

Listen to the same song over and over again...

Remember something that makes me laugh out loud

Want to get "gloriously fat"

Just need to wear red lipstick

"Once in his life, every man is entitled to fall madly in love with a gorgeous redhead."

-Lucille Ball

So, where are all these entitled men?

Seriously though.

Help I'm alive...

Dear Reader,

I have not written on my blog for a while now. Partly because,

one. School consumes my life

two. I was rewatching all the Grey's seasons which takes priority over everything else in life-beside school {by the way season two is definitely my favorite.}

three. I haven't really had anything to say

four. I am lazy.

So here I am once again trying to be creative or whatever.

I do have a few things to share with you. My beautiful cousin Katie took some photographs of me a few weeks ago which was very fun albeit it was freezing and the lighting wasn't great. Here are a few of the pictures she took of me...

Also, on Sunday I went out with my sister and took some photographs of her. As you can see she is a much better model than I am...

I know right. I'm jealous too.

So that is that.

Also, here are the songs that I'm OBSESSED with at the moment....

Help I'm Alive by Metric

Home by Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros {credit Shea Whitney}

Dream by Priscilla Ahn

Peace and Blessings.